Happy New Year!

2015 was quite the year- part of me is sad to see it go and part of me is happy to watch it leave.

Eila and I did some painting and then turned her artwork into a new year's crown! We said "Happy new year!" at 6:00 pm, right before she went to sleep, watched Jurassic World, and went to bed. I somehow stayed up until midnight while texting my friends and eating snacks in bed - it was actually kind of nice!

Dan and I talked about whether or not we have resolutions for 2016. I'm not totally set on it, but I think I want to focus on letting go of things I am not in control of. I tend to get stressed when things that other people are in control of don't go the way I have imagined. For example, when I'm at school, I want people to care for Eila exactly the way I would. Realistically, I know this is impossible because they are not me. I get stressed when I get updates on her day and who ever is caring for her does something differently than I would. I know she's safe, loved, and generally happy, but it's still not the way I want things to go. I feel like I have a lot on my plate right now and I think I'm trying to cope by trying to plan everything everyone does. It's not really helping my stress level go down, so I think I just need to let it go.

Aside from that resolution, I think I want to do more things for me and my mental health. Maybe I'll get more massages. Maybe I'll try to go more kickboxing classes. Maybe I'll try to paint or read or write (or all of those!) more.

I hope I'm ready for whatever 2016 has in store!